Staring in from outside
Common sense tells, patience is one of the key to be in a long distance relationship. Sometimes or some days, I just lose it. It is annoying when I don't know what she has in plan for the day. We chat, just a bunch of empty conversations. And then I get a last minute message when she's just leaving, telling me that she's already out somewhere or is going to meet some friends for dinner. I know, at least she lets me know. But the fact that I'm only aware of it at the last minute, makes me feel insignificant... because for one, I'm not there at her side, I don't get to play a part in her daily life and second, to be informed last minute feels like it's none of my business, that she's just letting me know out of courtesy. Maybe I sound like a mom here. I dunno, I just hate this feeling of not being able to be involved. I feel a little like an outsider.
