Saturday, February 25

Batting For Which Team?

music: Kel's Vintage Thought - Magnétophone

I went downtown yesterday in bid to search for an in-ear earphones by Sony. But I was dissapointed to find that the retail stores which I got the address from the Sony website do not carry those models. I ended up going to the nearby mall and walking into a Sony lifestyle store with all these earphones that I wanted :D *shiny eyes blink blink* But then again, I was let down because they only carry the exorbitantly priced models. Same specs but with an additional neck chain to hang your mp3 costs $40 more. Eeek! What?! So, I asked for their phone number and I will call in next week to confirm for the arrival of the model I wanted. IMHO, I don't think that it is wise to hang your mp3 around your neck expecially if you are out in a crowded area. Anybody could just easily snatch it away.

I also had my ears pierced for the first time after 19 years of existence on the face of the earth. I chickened out when I went in. So, I took a stroll and hang around a bit at a bookstore, pretending to be searching for university textbooks. After calming down my nerves, I had it done in 5 minutes :] I didn't know it would be that fast. Ironically, I wasn't afraid at all when I had to extract 4 teeth but this ear-piercing thing almost made me cry.

Ooh.. I felt a pang of jealousy when I saw this couple, one butch and one femme together. The femme is quite pretty and the butch girl, I guess is alright but I've seen cuter ones. It really makes me wonder what do femmes find attractive in a butch? Maybe it's their personality or their confidence of being daring enough to challenge the society's stereotypical image of a woman. Anyhow, the only descriptive word I could use to describe the appearance of butch girls is cute. No offence intended but I don't look at them in a way like "Wow, she's hot. She's sexy. She's everything I'm not". Lol. Jokes aside, now I recall one time when there was a butch girl sitting in front of me in tuition class and I couldn't stop stealing glances at her 'cause she's a total cutie pie ^_o Hmmm. I can't decide which side I want to be though. I'm sort of in-between. I don't use make-ups which put me out of the lipstick lesbian category. I don't have super short spiky hair thus I'm disqualified from the boi category. I'm just a regular girl with shoulder length hair, usually wears t-shirt + jeans + sneakers combo, no frilly girly dresses or sandals and skirt once in a while. I suppose anybody's gaydar will malfunction around me. The only thing that sets me apart is that I always keep my finger nails short and clean.

I see now what The L Word has done to me. And all those crazy lesbian podcasts. I learned so much. Speaking of podcasts, The Planet podcast made me laugh so hard I would've looked like a runaway schizo patient if I was listening to it when I jog. I mean, 'slap Dana until her bandages fall off and her nipples flew'? 'Then Bette pick up the nipples, threw them at Dana and they stick right in the middle of her forehead'? 'Do you want some sausage?'. LMAO! Now I have a mental image of that etched somewhere in my serebrum which could dangerously pop up out of nowhere while I'm in the middle of a class. Aaah!

Thursday, February 23

Quizzies

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.
What Kind of Seducer Are You?


Your Inner Child Is Sad

You're a very sensitive soul.
You haven't grown that thick skin that most adults have.
Easily hurt, you tend to retreat to your comfort zone.
You don't let many people in - unless you've trusted them for a long time.

How Is Your Inner Child?


You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.
Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.
Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.
No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.

You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.
Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.
A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.
You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul
What Kind of Soul Are You?

Wednesday, February 15

One Love? NO LOVE Is More Like It

music: Arcade Fire - Neighbourhood #2 (Laika)

I find it incredibly difficult to put my thoughts into words these days. I suppose this is the end result of spending too much time sitting idly at home. Damn. I need to find a job soon or my brain will turn into a rotten mush of pinkish matter.

I have lots of insecurity and hatred that I want to vent out. They've been occupying my brain and causing sleepless nights. But there are just so much of them that I don't feel like typing them out. Coupled with the fact that my mom is being so nasty to me lately because I snapped at her once. Perhaps I've crossed the line for doing that, but is it wrong to get angry? I am not an emotionless, stoic person that I always appear to be. I just can't control myself when anger gets to me. I wish mom could see and understand that. She gets all angry as well when I got angry about reasons unrelated to her. What the fuck? How about 90% of the time when I am actually happy, bouncy and trying my best to crack up jokes? So now 10% of the time when I'm moody outweighs 90% of that? Fuck it.

I don't see where Season 3 of TLW is getting. It's just a plain sad and somber season like the previous. I guess with the state that I'm in now, I'm really hoping to see some happy and mood uplifting drama.

Fuck Valentine's Day. There's no love in this world.